5/27
Period stopped Thursday and Friday then came back Saturday.. What a bust :(
Having a really bad day. I’m feeling extra lonely… On the plus side, no school tomorrow so I don’t have to wake up!
5/15
Period started even though I still have my NuvaRing in.. It’s been here since Saturday so I know it’s not just spotting. Has this happened to any of you?
- Prepare yourself mentally! Decide you’re going to do it, and just do it!
- Eat lightly a couple of days before the bowel prep. Eat more fruit and green vegetables and reduce meat and dairy products. This will make it easier for your bowels to empty.
- Some find that the mixture tastes best ice cold. One way to cool it quickly is to put it in the sink with ice all around it.
- As soon as you have drunk the mixture, follow-up with something strong tasting, such as your favourite flavoured chewing gum, hard candy, or a spoonful of chicken broth to get the taste out of your mouth. Make sure whatever you follow-up with is on your physician’s list of “approved liquids”.
- At some point the mixture will begin to “work.” This may take some time. It seems to help things along if you drink approved liquids in between the “cocktails.” Liquids such as ginger ale, chicken broth, lemonade, apple juice, are usually the most appealing. Remember to check with your physician for a list of what liquids are allowed.
- Use baby wipes to wipe your bottom. Get the all-natural, alcohol-free, aloe vera, unscented version. These will really save your bottom once you begin going often.
If you have a tendency to develop haemorrhoids, be sure to have a haemorrhoid cream on hand. It contains a little bit of “local anaesthesia” to ease the discomfort. You’ll be happy you did so! - If you feel yourself getting sick after drinking the umpteenth glass, try holding a sachet pillow to your nose, or a handkerchief scented with your favourite perfume or essential oil. If other drinks are allowed (check with your physician), try a slice of fresh ginger in some boiling water (ginger helps relieve nausea).
- Prepare the bathroom for your ordeal. You will spending a lot of time in there! Clean it if you think the corner fuzz balls will make you crazy after a while. Make it cozy with a bunch of flowers or some nice candles.
- Stock up on your favourite, easy-to-read books and magazines. You will need something to pass the time away.
- Station yourself near the bathroom. Make yourself a little nest that’s within a short dash to the bathroom. Have near you the TV, your books and magazines, your bowel prep cocktail, other approved liquids, pillows, and blankets. The urge to go will strike suddenly and without much warning, so be prepared for this little adventure by doing some advance planning. And try to make sure you do not have to “share” the bathroom with others during this time.
AND GOOD LUCK <3
5/10
Slept until 1:30 pm today and then took another hour long nap in the afternoon… Second day I’ve had to stay home from school because I’m so tired. I just feel like crying all the time and don’t know why.. So tired of this :(
5/3
I’m having major issues the last two days… Can barely get out of bed. Sleep at least 11 hours every day.. Eating way more than I need… I’m a little worried about myself.
Plus the pain is overwhelming, as usual. But that’s nothing new.
INCOMING - ENDO PAIN ALERT
Owwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Stupid womb. Hate you.
There is something seriously wrong with me
Learning strength…
Ladies, I want to share something super valuable I’ve learned over the last couple weeks. DON’T APOLOGIZE FOR SOMETHING YOU CAN’T CONTROL.
So I’ve started dating this guy, Larry. Haha don’t laugh at the name, he’s really adorable. I let him know early on that I have endometriosis because I couldn’t hang out that night and he asked why. Usually, if I had to bail on a date because of endo, I would give an excuse completely unrelated like a cold, or that something for work came up. I realized, I shouldn’t be embarrassed or sorry for something I can’t do anything about. So I told him.
And guess what? He still likes me!
Even the other night, he was over and I had really bad nausea (as a side effect from all the medicine, as you can probably all relate to). I curled up in a ball on my couch and was close to tears when to my surprise, he was still sitting next to me.. He put his hand on my back and tried to help my relax.. I was stunned.
It amazes me that when I’m completely honest with somebody, they are more understanding and even want to help. What made me sad is in those moments I kept feeling like I had to say “I’m sorry, you should go” or “I’m sorry that you have to deal with this”, when the only “I’m sorry” I should be uttering is “I’m sorry for myself”. That’s the only person I need to apologize to, me.
I look at my previous relationship and think back to the way I dealt with it. I was always feeling guilty for my disease when it got in the way of things. Now I think, why did I do that? It wasn’t my fault, it never will be.
So endo sisters out there, hear me loud and clear. THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT. Don’t apologize for something that you can’t control. If somebody has a problem with your disease and can’t handle it, they’re the ones with a problem. You are beautiful. <3 xoxo
Curled up in a writhing ball on the ground, feeling like someone is trying to tear my insides out and mum yells at me for not doing any work. Through gritted teeth I tell her my endo is flaring up again and she just lowers her eyelids, tells me to take some painkillers and walks away.
YOU KNOW THEY DO NOTHING. NOTHING WORKS. YOU KNOW THAT.
MY LIFE <3
seriously. c’mon pevic region. hips. upper thighs. lower back.
we’ve got stuff to get done today.
i’ll take you swimming later! i’ll feed you multiple pain pills! i’ll beg the husband to massage you for an hour!
c’moooon.
